A Brief SetBack (And GN Update)

A lot of times when I am following what God has told me to do, I feel like it will be easy or it will be successful. That’s not necessarily the case. Just because you’re obedient, doesn’t mean you’re not going to fail. For example, when Jesus sent out the disciples in Matt. 10, He told them what to do if people didn’t accept their message. In fact, He was up front with them and told them that they would be persecuted and arrested. Obedience didn’t keep them from getting hurt.

So when I started on this Graphic Novel project, I had to remind myself that it wasn’t going to be easy and it may not be successful.

I started out well, the first few pages were beautiful, and I was pleased that I was able to draw a decent ruined Jelu. But then came pages 8 and 9. I guess part of it was that I wasn’t feeling well, but my drawing that day was awful! AWFUL! Later that day I went back to it, and I was appalled. Every panel had something I had to fix, and one panel had to be completely redrawn from scratch. All my old insecurities flooded back to me: What am I doing? Why am I trying to do this? I can’t do this.

I was obedient, but not successful.

But instead of giving up . . . with all my insecurities ringing in my ears . . . I prayed for strength and ability, sucked it up, and tried again. My redrawn sections were much better. Not perfect, but my best. And no, I still can’t draw a speeder. Though I tried. I imagine that when I get better at drawing, I’ll come back and redraw what I have right now. But what I have will have to do.

So I’ve moved forward. I’ve finished penciling the first 11 pages of the GN–that’s Chapter 1. Next week comes inking.

On a more positive note, I got me a dip pen set. And I LOVE it. I drew and inked the GN’s cover for practice, and it’s the first time I’ve ever liked my line art. Oh, those crisp, beautiful, black lines! I love them. I also got my proof copy for Celebrity Dish so I’ll be working on that too.

Anyway, that is all.

-:heart: M.R. Anglin


Obedience in All Things

Okay, I’m going to be real for a second.

First let me say that I am a Christian, and I take my faith pretty seriously. I may not always talk about it online, but I try to make my faith permeate everything I do and write. And I believe that God speaks to us through His Word and through His Spirit and that he has a plan for everyone. And I believe that when He asks us to do something it’s for our own good and so that we can accomplish the things He’s put us on the earth to do. I say all this so you can get some context in what I’m about to tell you.

I am surrounded by so many people who are called by God. He has put a dream in their heart, and I’ve tried to encourage them to accomplish that dream. But at some point or another those people have not taken the steps that are so obvious (to me) that God has told them to do to accomplish their dreams. And it’s so frustrating when they have struggled because I’ve seen what they should do, but they can’t seem to see it. And even when I remind them of what God has told them to do, they seem to forget the next day!

That being said, let me get real. The other day God showed me that I, too, have been disobedient to what He told me to do. Talk about HUMBLING! There are a set of three tasks that He directed me to do, but they’ve fallen by the wayside for various reasons. And the tasks aren’t even that difficult.

But God is gracious to me. And He’s gracious to the people I love who aren’t doing what they’re supposed to.

So I’ve started again.

All I can do is apologize to Him and continue on. And have grace to those around me who are not being obedient. God, help me to show grace because my frustration is born out of love for them . . . because I know if they continue being disobedient they’ll never accomplish their dreams.

Lord, help me be loving in all things.

-:heart: M.R. Anglin

The World Declares God’s Glory

“For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities–his eternal power and divine nature–have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.” Romans 1:20 NIV

I am a firm believer that much of the things we see on earth are just a reflection of what things are like in Heaven. In other words, the things we like . . . beautiful colors, the awesome strength of lightning, the wonders of the universe . . . we like them because they tell our spirits of Heaven. At least, that’s what I think.

But the fact remains that the world is telling us about God. When you look around and see the world, you are seeing God’s fingerprints all over it. Mountains are huge, strong, and beautiful. The sea is both inspiring and powerful.

Now there are those people who believe that the world was created by evolution . . . that all the wonderful works we see are by accident. But when you really look at the world, when you see how intertwined and delicate it all is, and when you really look at evolution’s arguments (not what they say, but at the science behind it), it falls apart.

I offer this as an example: http://www.inspiks.com/creation-tidbits-the-hoatzin-bird/

There is a song by Rebecca St. James that illustrates this concept perfectly.

        The heavens declare You are God
           And the mountains rejoice.
        The oceans cry “Alleluia”
           As we worship You, Lord.
        For this is our song of love.

Here the song and see the video here: Song o Love by Rebecca St. James

(It’s RSJ’s youtube channel. I don’t like to watch videos that aren’t following copyright rules.)

Ever Been Embarrassed?

Ever had something embarrassing happen to you? Worse yet, has it ever been all your fault?

That happened to me this week. I accidentally told a lie about someone. How do you accidentally tell a lie? Well, I suppose it’s not really a lie. I misunderstood some information and told a bunch of other people about it. No, not gossip . . . if it was true they would have needed to know about it.

Anyway, I should have known that the information I got was inaccurate because it didn’t sound like something the person would do. So I went back and checked. I should have done that first because when I realized I was wrong, I had to go back and call everyone to apologize about it. That was so embarrassing!

But I think I did the right thing, you know? I went back and did what it took to make it right even though I hated every minute of it.

So what about you? Have you ever done something stupid that caused you to be embarrassed? How did you handle it?